Falling Down ~ Ben Jelen

Before I post these lyrics, I'd like to say that I will use this blog to post meaningful songs and my interpretation or why they are so powerful to me. Writing and lyrics (aka good songs) have always spoken volumes. Now if I could only write as well! Maybe I'll share some of my own work, but for now, I'd rather show the world these great artists!

Ben Jelen ~ "Falling Down"

At a stoplight in the middle of the night
Stuck in first and I wonder if I should stay
The right is history and to my left the choice is right
But this seems a little bit too hard

And all the questions come running through my mind
Will I see this another way?
The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down
And I don't want to drag her through the bottom

No... then she says
"Sit in front of me, turn around you'll see
I'm everything you'd want, all you'd ever need
Come back into my world
You know I'm always yours"
And she makes so much sense when she says
"Don't throw this away"

It's hard to know what's real when it all seems wrong
But I promise you I'll find what's going on
I just need to follow the sun before I'll know
If I'll see this another way

The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down
And I don't want to drag you through the bottom

Then you say

"Sit in front of me, turn around you'll see
I'm everything you'd want, all you'd ever need
Come back into my world, you know I'm still your girl"
And she makes so much sense when she says
"Don't throw this away."

Isabel she treads so lightly floating in her gypsy dresses
Even though her words cut deep I can't deny the truth in them
On the phone she talks a lot and me, I listen hopelessly
So directionless, I head into oblivion

And then I decide to give another random memory
To remind her of the first time we sang out to the sea
Oh Isabel, you always understood me
Please Isabel, forgive me now.

...and all the questions come running through my mind - will I see this another way?
The simple truth is I'm falling, falling down, and I don't want to drag you through the bottom
No I don't want to drag you through the bottom.

-end-

To me, this song is truly moving. For anyone who's had turmoil in their relationship and had to make a decision, this is especially true. I can remember one of the big fights I had with my ex husband where I was at a crossroads. I remember hearing the normal pleas and offerings to change. There was a time when I would have embraced it, and I did for a few years. After realizing that nothing was changing, I finally decided to leave. Having to choose someone you love over a mistake from the past is truly difficult. Can you truly forgive someone and not hold it against them? Can one live life as if it had never happened and replace the trust that was lost? In my honest opinion, I believe people can change. The person must change upon their own accord, not to please another. The person must also accept that the scar will never be erased, but can be faded over time. I have resolved that one time is too many and after explaining to Artie my stance on this, I believe to him I am more important than any other woman or choice that he would make to ruin our relationship. We both have a past. We both understand what the other has done. We have made a silent promise to each other... one of respect, trust, honesty, and loyalty.

I have always said that there is a true "love triangle." On each point, you have trust, honesty, and loyalty. Remove any of the points, and you cannot have what's in the center. Love. When I lost one, I held on to the other two and couldn't put it back together. I then lost another leg and the final one was gone close afterward. I know the pain and misery it causes and I would never want anyone to feel the way I did. However, is it worth trying once? Yes. Mistakes are human. When you repeat those mistakes, you should be punished.

I believe I've gone way off on a tangent here, but there you have it. Give this tune a listen. I think it just may tug at a heart string or two. :)